| Uncertainty |
[Aug. 10th, 2006|01:38 pm] |
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Life is so full of this notion. The one that says to us we should know what to expect of each situation presented to us, yet we know we do not. I feel that the only way to overcome this feeling I behold now, is to push it aside and find the answer to what my actions will bring. To walk blindly into a situation is not typically my way, but I want so badly to see you that it matters not what the outcome should be. My life now is full of uncertainty, that uncomfortable feeling of "what if everything goes awry." I long to see your face again, to feel your body pressed against mine, to feel your soft lips giving me the kiss that means more to me than just a simple action...It is a risk of having you angry at me once again, but a risk I am willing to take. If you wish me from your sight, I will diminish into the dark, but ever be waiting for your call. The feelings in my heart for you cannot be contained in simple words like Love or Adoration, they are too vast for those short words to encompass all that I feel for you...I have hope in me that things will be better than I suspect they will, and know in my heart that even now our Fates are intertwined, that it is just the natural course of time, and everything will be as it should.... |
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[Jun. 19th, 2006|12:17 am] |
Why must I feel empty and helpless in this moment,
Thinking of the things we shared and the time we spent.
Why do I feel cold and utterly alone...
Why cant I have a life I feel is truly all my own?
So many questions wandering deep inside my head...
I wish it all would stop...I wish the sadness dead...
I offered out my love, my hand I gave to you...
but back into the mist you crawled with nothing I can do...
I sit and wait here for you and keep calling out your name....
Wishing you'd come back, you're not the one to blame...
My shadow sits beside me and whispers in my ear...
Telling me to do things that I dont wish to hear...
He taunts me with dark passions of dreams of dealing pain...
Of destroying one who's earned it, the only one to blame...
It isn't fair now is it, that he be close to you,
While I sit back here watching waiting here for you...
Destruction of a simple boy seems all too right for me...
The one who couldn't keep his head, the one who couldn't see...
I push aside my demon, but only for a while...
I know that shade will soon be back with it's evil smile...
Something pains me deeply and now I start to fret...
My heart fills full of anguish, sorrow, and regret...
I hope that you can see me now, that it's not that I am weak...
It's strength in me that I know not, to relinquish what I seek...
So again I call for you, into the darkened mist....
My heart feels cold and empty with my longing for your kiss...
I scream your name once more and hold out my hand to the wind...
Waiting, wanting, wondering when you'll be back again...
Life is full of wanting, regrets, and pain in troves...
But don't forget there's other things, like friends, family, and love...
Love? I ask myself, seeming so profound...
I wish I knew what it was....it's something I've never found...
A soft spot in my heart, pains me in a way...
That no bullet or knife can touch, now that you're away...
I let my eyes slip shut and drown myself in sorrow...
I wish for you this time, for you a better tomorrow... |
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